Figments and Fragments

• Watch Tony get out of Midgar
• Beat the Water Temple
• Go to bed on time to wake up early for the motha fuckin PACIFIC OCEAN tomorrow.

Who here has a mailing address and an email I can use as a reference for this application I’m ATTEMPTING to complete?

My comprehension of what’s going on over halfway through what feels like the stupidest Final Fantasy (XIII): 
Okay so they’re running after these people yet they’re after the people they’re running from? They’re all going to turn into something or another but they’re saving this girl? All of the characters are unlikeable and the game is so linear that I am perpetually walking down a long hallway only the map doesn’t change. I’m just inside this weird mechanical room that only turns into another mechanical room into another mechanical room.

I’m 20 hours in, only four chapters away from beating it and I don’t get it. What even is this. Everyone is saying to hold on tight because it gets good but my God this is an uphill battle. 

WHAT IS HAPPENING
WHAT IS THIS STORY ABOUT
WHY ARE ALL OF THE CHARACTERS SO TERRIBLE
WHY AM I STILL PLAYING THIS

• Videogames, nothing but videogames.

• DENTIST appointment. No cavities! I take good care of my mouth! Turns out being the resident Safeway employee has the perk of 100% coverage for preventative care, FUCK YES.
• With the help of my loving boyfriend, I GOT NEW BRAKES FOR MY CAR!!! Strums, girl u so smooooth now.
• Got a $3 espresso shot while Tony got a real person mocha.
• Went on a walk at Priest Point Park <3
• Went out to lunch with mah boo.
• Called an employer about some job I don’t want.
• WENT TO THE MALL, applied for a credit card to establish me some CREDDDDS$$sZZZZ
• Went to the candy store to buy candy for my not shitty co-worker’s last day.
• Got the mail from the office, opened up packages, started my dad’s father’s day package. (late)

Day one of my vacation was going to the farm stand and CLEANING the fuck out of our apartment. Now that all the big important ^grown up^ stuff is finished, I will lay under some blankets in my dark cold bedroom and read The Hunger Games. I may take me a bear nap for it’s vacation time and I sure am sleepy. 

lololol last night I was in charge of the whole fuel station. They wouldn’t let the only other person there go home for throwing up so I was forced into running around with my head cut off in attempt to get everything I needed to get done in time. We had a perpetual line of 5/6 people the whole night. I had to ignore people and I wasn’t making many friends.

At one point, we had to shut down the station so I could call tech support, it was awesome.

I’m currently in the middle of my six day work week before I am able to take a vacation that’s been made clear to me won’t be guaranteed. I wasn’t getting supervisor pay last night. My favorite part about all of this is that they only gave me ten hours before scheduling me to come back in. 

I keep trying to rationalize in my head that maybe it’s just me but I don’t know anymore. I’ve been looking for new jobs. I don’t want to trade this in for another shitty retail job especially being that this is higher end retail. My health benefits are pretty great. I don’t want to trade them in for something mediocre. I’m aiming for more pay and potentially no retail. I don’t really know.

Off to fucking work I go. I should be painting and making mix tapes and reading books.

edit: oh and they fired the only co-worker I connected with and trespassed all of my favorite hobos. Those fucking humorless assholes, don’t they understand that I need intellectual stimulation in order to ward against feeling supa supa supa $uicid@L?????